Real self?

i always wonder... can i actually be the real me in this lil corner of my blog? I guess no cos i no longer feel that freedom of being able to say whatever i want to say...
What if i say stuff that might hurt the people who read my blog?? Maybe im just too ignorant...who reads my blog anyways.None of "MY FRIENDS" does anyways...what's the point of having a blog then!!??!!

It hurts to know that you are no longer considered to be IN THE GROUP. You tried so hard and so many times you tell yaself that it is ok...but truly ..u know u r not... I am not going to act as if i dont care anymore...i do care about what you guys think bout me!! I am not invisible. i need attention and words of encouragements too!! noone cares...u ppl..all of u who call urself friends of mine... what about those words of FRIENDS FOREVER??? i wish ppl and leave messeges time to time..what do i get? i got SHIT!! not even a small lil msg from the drop box!! and here...some one's graduation...some one's birthday....someone's achievements.... and made it a BIG GREAT DEAL out of it...calling here and there...as if u guys are telling each other I am a better friend than you to her/him cause i called!! ..yeah....call me jealous...call me a freak...whatever..i dont care anymore.... i guess i was never considered as one of the friends anyways!!