whAt WiLL i Do??

Sitting here.. staring at the computer screen, thinking and wondering how's Julie feeling as she is waiting for her husband to leave her life forever!

They got married 4 months ago and just as they are happily enjoying "just-married" life...he was rushed to the hospital 3 weeks ago. The doctor informed her that his condition was critical. The tumor in his brain got larger just in a few hours and in a few days time, he will not be able to talk, see and recognize people.

3 days..the doctor said two days ago. He is now lying on the bed...waiting for his turn to go. Suffering and at the same time, hoping for miracle to happen.

I can picture Julie sitting beside his dying body... holding his hand, tears flowing from her eyes, and her with a broken heart. She, looking at her newly married groom, taking careful notice of every breath he inhales...croosing her fingers, wishing that it will not be the last breath he takes.
The beeping sound of the cardioagraph has became immuned to her. All she cares now is about his every movement. If she is given a wish, Im sure she will wish for more time. She wants to be with him more than anybody else. She has faith even though she doesnt understand why God is doing this to her.

I try to put myself in her situation and i cant bear it.

WHAT IF THAT HAPPEN TO ME?
1) Will i still be able to be so strong in faith?
2) Will i be able to sit there and wait for the last good-bye?
3) Will i run away from the reality?
4) Will i regret of marrying him?
5) Will i marry another person in future?

and the list goes on and on....

I think the hardest feeling is to knowing that the person you love most is about to leave you forever.
I used to have that feeling when my mum 1st discovered to have cancer. I feared every day that i was gonna lose her and every night i was scared that i wont be able to see her again the next morning.
But God has been so grateful and merciful. He showed great miracles to my family. It has been 5 yrs and my mum is still here until today. I thank Him for that.
As human, we will only appreciate something or someone when we know that we are gonna lose it. From that incident, i learnt to appreciate everyone besides me before it is too late. I also learnt that life is sometimes a joke.

I really hope that God will again show great miracle towards Julie's husband, but if He doesn't, do not be discouraged and despaired. Im sure He has a plan for that. We just gotta be patient and trust in Him that everything He does, that's a purpose.

Julie, our prayer is with you. Be strong and stand firm!!

~*LoVe gIvEs tHe tAsTe oF eTeRnItY*~


aLwAyZ,
~*JaSmInE*~