sLeeP, dReAm & ReaLiTy

12pm already!!

Been waking up late for the past 4 days. My body just can't adjust back to normal time. Feel sooo tired and dead. Maybe that is why im still having migraine. I cant help it... i go to bed at usual time but i can't fall asleep until 4am!! If i were to tell this to someone, am sure he is gonna say :" you should get some sleep!!" but HOW???

How i wish i can just dive myself in bed without having to eat, study and so on.... Time flies when you are asleep! It is a good way to run and run and run away from the reality but when you wake up, you feel the same again... and you realised that sleeping is just a good excuse to run and you know that you have been lying to yourself again and again...

I do not deny the fact that im bothered!! i do not deny the fact that I want to run! and more so.... i do not deny the fact that im unhappy and lonely!! But i gotta do this to find myself and to find HIM.

I dreamt of my old days back in high school. Teen days were the coolest! I dreamt of my girls and my guys! Those few guys were the topic in those days and my girls were there to support and gosip with me...

In the dream, we girls got the guys we ever wanted and wished for... but after a while, we realised that they werent that cool and we left them. It was sooo cool to dream of something like that. But at one point, i dreamt that I rejected MR.E because the reality came into the picture and it was YOU that i wanted most.

Let me dream more....... at least i can feel ur presence!