DePreSsIoN?!? oR oVeR-ReAcTinG?

Not in "normal" spirit for the past week and a half. High spirit in the beginning of the week and towards the end of the week, it was bad. Had this feeling before when i was under minor depression. Really wonder whether i was totally heal from then...

Psychologists describe depression as negative thinking which gradually becomes self-defeating and it is a prolonged & persistent negative mood which can colour and interfere with many aspects of life. It is characterised by feelings of sadness, disappointment, loneliness, worthlessness, excessive guilt, self-doubt and hopelessness. I feel them all, especially worthlessness....

Emotional
Sadness, Anxiety, Guilt, Anger, Mood swings, Lack of emotional responsiveness, Helplessness, Hopelessness, Physical Chronic fatigue, lack of energy, Sleeping too much or too little, overeating or loss of appetite, Constipation, Weight loss or gain, Irregular menstrual cycle, Loss of sexual desire, Unexplained aches and pains.

Behavioural
Crying spells, Withdrawal from others, Worrying, Neglect of responsibilities, Loss of interest in personal appearance, Loss of motivation, Thoughts/Perceptions,Frequent self-criticism, Self-blame, Pessimism, Impaired memory and concentration, Indecisiveness and confusion, Tendency to believe others see you in a negative light, Thoughts of death and suicide.

I have almost all the symptoms listed above. I think i should definately go see a psychologist but i just don't feel like telling a stranger about how i feel and im sick of those treatments they give you.

I just wanna run...run far far away... im tired....im sick...i dont feel good...i dont feel that i belong here...i dont know who am i.

Hopefully these feelings will go away...

~*SpRiNg ShoPpiNg SpRee*~

Should i keep the dress? Or should i return it? What do u girls think?

SiCk NiGhT oUt!!!

Just tooooo MUCH...... for me at least





WHAT THE WORLD HAS BECAME.....

Feelllll soooooo Sick!! I seen worse on TV but just the fact that i was in a CHEAP pub watching fat girls LIVE Dirty-Dancing for 2 hours made me felt like PUKING!!!

Anyone seen something like this before, back in MALAYSIA???!!?? guess not... if so, that person will so gonna get his/her ass right into the prison! That's what Malaysian government called "khalwat" means seclusion. ( according to bob)

Western world is always too MUCH...too open. How could anyone feel comfortable making out in the public? In front of soooo many freaking people. I do understand the HUMAN RIGHTS thingy here...but Man!! dont they feel shameful or embarass?

Felt so ashamed for those girls and at the same time I was mad... those girls just degraded Female kind!! However, i do understand why ... i called it DESPERATION! Just look at their body... do they have a choice to ask for a better man? Sounding mean here...but it is soooo true.

We live in a realistic world with bitches and bastards around ... almost everyone is freaking realistic and materialistic....we cant hide but jus to live with it. And for those girls ...the fat ones especially, want to get their fun and attention from MALEs, knowing the fact that MALEs just want to get them laid. What do men care about anyways? They get their WORK-OUT done and all they need is just a hole...who cares about the face nor the body when you are desperate, right? But obviously, not saying that all men are the same...so dont get SENSITIVE here.

No matter how, girls, we really do gotta beware of certain guys... they have intentions! I dont believe that girls and guys can be "best best" of friends. We are from different planet and we cant be innocent when we deal with THEM. JUST have to be smart and know how to play the game, there will only be one WINNER!

By the way, im just voicing out my opinions. It is a free corner here to say whatever i want.

ChiLL

I am a TeAcHeR

Found myself a part-time job ... Teaching Mandarin!

I know my mandarin sucks back in high school but still... i decided to put it into use now as im desperate for MONEY!

Recently found a korean girl as student and now... im officially a Tutor. My job is just to speak to her in mandarin and teach her Mandarin idioms. It sounds easy but it is still a challenge since she can speak mandarin quite well. Come to think about it, I should be able to teach high school mandarin since i was in mandarin school for 10 yrs!!! oh man... i feel so ashamed that my mandarin is sooo bad.

Well, at least i know mandarin and im kind of proud of it! Thanks mummy for sending me to Mandarin school!

AMC rocks....

JuSt FinIsHeD!!

yey! im done with FINALS.

Now im left with nothing to do while others are still busy with their finals till the 28th of April. hrmmmm... have to find something to amuse myself.

Went to fix my nails yesterday...i love it. French Manucure makes me feel SEXY! =p



Cant think of anything to blog now... Hopefully I'll find something interesting to do for the next few weeks.

~*BeAuTiFuL*~

The sun is high up, birds chipping, squirrels chasing around on the green green grass... ...

Short-skirts, slippers, tank-tops, bare skins, fit bodies, mascular shoulders, sports-cars... ...

The weather is just Beautiful....


downtown Montreal, Spring 8 degrees C.

~*Transfering*~

Counting down

10, 9 ,8, 7 ,6 ... ...

days to finlas!! Not nervous yet but i know i will be soon!

After the 13th and the 15th, i'll be Officially done with my 2nd year! BUT i haven't even started with any of my MAJOR couses! yeah...stupid John Molson School Of Business only accept transfering once a year which lead me into the state of wasting money and time, taking random elective and core courses. Anyways, i wish i will do good in this coming finals and get my ass into the business school!

Thinking of majoring in accountancy. Not too sure whether i really want to do so as it is known as the most boring job ever BUT at least it is stable. Who knows, maybe i will continue with CA after the degree. Am also thinking of minoring in economics since it is interesting... conversely i have to stay in Uni for another 27 credits.

sigh...future seems tough though im enjoying my life now!

ChiLL.....